October 13, 2010
My wonderful day

Oh, this morning I did not want to get out of bed.

I had my first assessment interview at my school today. As I’ve just began my training at the London School of Film, Media & Performance for Acting. I got some much needed feedback, which has brightened up my day.

I then went on to the National Theatre to see a production of Danton’s Death by Georg Büchner. The play is set during the French revolution and is the British take on a political feud which ultimately leads to ‘Danton’s death’. The play is quite interesting, although not exactly my cup of tea. I’m in the course of writing a review on it.

I really hate writing essays, it’s probably the most hated thing for me. I love to write but I hate to write for a grade. I put a lot of pressure on myself and get nothing done. Currently I need to read a full play, learn a monologue and write a character analysis to be done by Friday. My progress is next to none and I think I’m writing here as a means of getting away from it.

In other news; I’ve just booked my flights to go home to Ireland for a week and I will be over there next Friday. I’m really happy to get a break!

See u soon!

August 31, 2010
I want to know how it feels.

Sometimes life just feels like a spin. I’m making decisions here and I don’t know why really. I’m sure it’s nothing abnormal but it just doesn’t feel right. I wish I didn’t have to make decisions to be honest. I just want things to fall into place sometimes, They had before, Almost.

If I’m honest to myself I hate London yet I’ve made a decision in my mind I want to spend my next year there. That’s what I call a compromise. I do really love acting and feel this is a great chance but, I’m in a very mentally unfit mind for it. I’m still very affected since living in London the first time. Saying it, you must think I must have went through brutal torture. Not quite, but I guess I just take things to close to my heart. 

I’m sure why and I wish I didn’t but I can’t change the fact that I do. 

I just don’t want to lose the track of time by compromising. I don’t believe life should be one big compromise. At the moment it is, Hopefully I’ll be looking back on this with a smile after all of my compromises finally having success. Just sometimes I don’t even want the success I just want to live in the now and enjoy the now. I feel stuck sometimes, like I just want to let go, I don’t think I’ve ever fully done it. I’ve just been dedicated.

I don’t know if anything has similar feelings or even has a clue what I’m saying.

Next week is my next big chance in life. A milestone for me and what I would probably call my biggest step yet. I will move to London yet again, start a new life, completely alone, the next step towards my dreams in life.

August 10, 2010
Writing a play!

So I have started working on a new play, I am co-writing with my amazing friend Katie. We both love to write and we are actors ourselves too so it will be a great collaboration. I guess our aim is to write an amazing play and produce it some day in the near future. It’s something we have both attempted before separately and we realised through a skype chat that maybe it would work if we came together! It’s a project I am completely excited about. This time we are determined to complete it. I guess writing together is a way we can combine ideas, express different viewpoints in one story and a way of motivating each other. Ultimately the point is to bring two different minds to the table and get amazing results. She will be working on it from America and me from London! So it will be interesting.

I will keep you posted!

-Gavin

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